Counting down to “that” day

Ziming Lan
1 min readJul 8, 2022


That day is soon, those who know me would know that I don’t really like that day. Even though I still celebrate it somewhat to feel less bad about it.

So thursday night I went, for the 3rd time in my life, I went to a karaoke with a friend. It was a heavy $100 bill in the end, but I quite enjoyed myself during the karaoke.

Deep down however… I know I’m just delaying thinking about what I must eventually do or face. I need to be prepared for the worst.

Went back to facebook for a short while, saw an online friend posting about a rare manic episode episode that they had recently & how it has hurt their relationship with their friends. While in the comments, another person comments that one does not need bipolar to have a manic episode. Reading it, a past event started to make more sense. It felt similar to how I felt some years ago when I’m about to graduate. But I must be careful not to self diagnose again.

Last but not least, really sad what happen to Shinzo Abe today, a reminder to treasure life

Games wise, A memorable one I played recently is What Remains of Edith Finch. It talks about a strange curse plaguing a family for generations. It is incredibly tragic & potentially trigger warning on some mental health issues. Still I’m glad I played it.

Sorry for this mess of a thought process.